Friday, June 6, 2008
i went thru my email and i saw dis special email sent by e special someone whereby i almost forget it
"i had read wat u wrote twice.. i don noe wat to ans u..im lost too. i don feel gd all the while too.. u r hurt so am i..the onli thing i can forget everything is when im in ** ..everytime i will c my phone for any msg..but afterall when we break no one msg mi le..as i say im all alone..yup i told ** when im gng to op..cos he call mi and i answer. y i answer is becos i tot is the** in my Place..i didnt noe is him..all the while he call mi i wont ans.. and u can have my words nth will happen between mi and him..is impossiable between mi n him..i don really enjoy all the while too..yes im happy gng out with frens..but to mi happiness wont last.. God will always give us something gd, and for sure god will take some back too..in the world nth is fair..yes i noe is heartpain for u... so am i.. i did enjoy been with u..but life just ask too much.. i don intend to break with u..but i had my reason..not becos i had fallen for anyone.. as im in ** i cant have much time be with u.. so we can onli talk on phone or sms.. onli weekend den can see u..i noe u will say is okie for u, but i feel bad..sometime u sms mi sayin u r with ya fren..and with couple or wat whereby they r so sweet or wat so ever.. i felt im useless or a failure as a **..i noe before breakin with u i totally changed.. im really sorry.. i have no choice..even though the hurt n pain had heal in my heart..but i can tell u the scar is always remain in my heart..i belived there is lots of ppl who is 10 time or 100 time better den mi for you..just go for it..don care abt mi..im just a loser..it may nt be easy, i belived u can do it de.. but promise mi don harm urself kkz..prove to mi u can live without mi.. don hurt urself becos of mi..is worthless..and oso don cry for mi..i don wanna u to cry..okie kimo..i take it as a promise kkz..Smile as u always smile..no matter how tough it is..it will come to an end kkz.. live for urself..not live for mi..i belived u can de..jia you.. and yup i do love u once..don worry i wont ignore u as wat i did to **..u will have my promise.. afterall don disappoint mi kkz.. stop here le..cant continue le..im just really confuse and lost in the world of myself.. "
after i've read dis i cried agn... y must i go read thru my mail...lols... let it be ba... everything's over le... just look forward... dun forget i'm still a cold blooded kuku..
but overall if got anii prob stillc an find miie...i'll help if i can....
CHEERSkiimo/RenreN;
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