aint my bei cute!!!!lols...




aniiwae i haven been tokin to bei for quite long... kinda miss him....
he said he wasnt in a good mood.... so i told him y not he tell miie wat happen...

he say he dunn wanna miie to worry....
but e ting is tat... if he dun tell miie i will even worry lo...
i was tinkin isit becox he dun love miie le tats y he is doin so...
or he wanna cool down and tiink abt it....
or he wanna test miie and see if i realli love him or i will say lets break...
i realli dunnoe wat he is up to lo...
if say he dun love miie le.. he wont sms miie or eve msn miie le wat...
or isit just becox he is nei jiu so he sms miie...
cox whenever i sms him he nvr reply lor... is lik....haixx,,,
i realli dunneo wat to say lo... i keep cryin non stop... but does he know....
everytime when i tot i found e rite one but....
he can realli say is e one who i love so much after JNLK....
everyhting just turn out weird....
not e way i wann it to be....
maybe i am not fit to enjoy e happiness in a relationship.....
but for dis one i will persevere!!!!
i will try my verii best to hold on to it... no matter wat happen...
no matter how sad i am....
though i've cried thru out e song 'ru guo ni ye ting shuo'
but i believe if i persevere everything will turn out fine...
just now was chattin wiid yong an on msn...
i sad i lik to take my life and gamble it....
if i win... i will get wat i wann at times even tings tat we din wish for...
if i lose... i'll lose everything....
EVEN MYSELF....
shu hui and yong an told miie tat ryan is now verii close term wiid kelvin...
haha... wat a funny tiing... first ryan was damn pissed off tat kel 'snatch' an off...
after kel and an broke off... now ryan verii close term wiid an...
they wann miie to stop kel to do so...
my reply to them was...
let it be.. since u all areaddii told kel le... let it be...
we cant owaes protect him thru his live... rite...
we should let him fall down once...let him noe how scary dis circle is....
let him noe hwo to face dis circle long term down e road....
in this way we can make him into a stronger kelvin...
lols.... i seem so heartless and cold hearted rite... but all dis is for his own good... i owaes
believe tat we will learn our mistakes from a fall....
tag reply....
will link u all asap de....cheers=)
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